Episode 166

                “I’m standing on a bridge,
                I’m waiting in the dark,
                I thought that you’d be here by now.
                There’s nothing but the rain,
                No footsteps on the ground,
                I’m listening but there’s no sound.”
                                Avril Lavigne, I’m with you

 

                Roland knocked on the light green townhouse door, not expecting it to spread open as he struck it. He blinked for a moment at the open entrance, then stepped into the apartment that was filled with clutter and junk. “Sydney?” He called.

                “Yeah.” Came a shout from inside the living room. “Come on in.” Roland trotted down the short, but narrow hallway past the kitchen to end up in Sydney’s usually spacious living room. At the moment, however, all of the dame’s furniture was pulled out from the walls and all her possessions stacked up onto the assorted stands like islands in the Pacific.

                “What the hell are you doing?” Roland asked.

                Sydney looked around at her living room for a moment, taking a second to breath. She looked back at Roland, smiling as a thick lock of her blonde hair fell down in front of her face. “Playing Tetris?” She tried. She laughed and shrugged her shoulders to resettle the black tank top she was wearing as she moved some books out of a chair. “Have a seat.”

                Roland moved into the chair as the blonde dame jumped up onto a chest of drawers and sat on the top, mindless of the magazines she sat on. “I never figured you for a magazine girl.” He said, taking a magazine off the top of the stack near him.

                “I like to read.” Sydney shrugged as a defense. “And besides, I get a lot of magazines. Popular Science, Martial Arts Training . . .”

                “Cosmopolitan.”

                “I do not.” Sydney yelled at Roland.

                The knight held up the most recent issue of the magazine. “You do too.”

                “Well, I,” She tried. “I like the quizzes.”

                “’Does your man have a dirty mind?’” Roland read off the cover. “Answer? Yes.”

                “Did you hear what Morgan did to Marilyn?” Sydney asked, opening a water bottle and taking a healthy gulp from it.

                “About the two-girls thing and how every guy thinks about it? Yeah.” Roland chuckled. “That was the best prank ever.”

                “Roland. It’s true.”

                “Yeah, but just because it’s real doesn’t keep it from being a prank.” Roland laughed. Sydney just shrugged and drank more water. “You know, we’re leaving to go off to war in like thirty-six hours. What the hell possessed you to do this?”

                “When I get nervous, I clean.” She said. “I started cleaning, realized I didn’t like the way my apartment was set up, so I decided to reorganize.”

                “Uh-huh.” Roland nodded. “And what are you nervous about?” Sydney gave Roland a hard look. “It wouldn’t happen to be Morgan, would it?”

                “Morgan and I are spoken for, Roland.” Sydney said, hopping down from the chest of drawers. “We pretty much were before we met.”

                “You know, he may not think so.” Roland called after as she went into the kitchen.

                “I’m having enough trouble fitting all my furniture into my apartment, Roland.” Sydney called from the refrigerator. “I don’t have room for emotional baggage.”

 

                Armand held his brand up to his face, checking the edge of the sword as the light gleamed off of it. Sliding down the razor’s edge like water falling off a dream, the sword’s blade was flawless.

                The young knight held the sword out from him, the long weapon heavy in his hands. The full-tang wooden was comfortable to his grip while the blade’s weight was just a bit heavier than the handle’s. And as Armand closed his eyes and breathed in, the smell of metal shavings, honing oil, and metal polish filled his senses.

                Armand opened his eyes again, to find his and Everett’s room around him. It had been cleaned impeccably while outside the window; the early Monday morning waned on. Armand took a deep breath, then tossed his brand onto the bed.

                “I think this is it, Ulysses.” He said to the sword. “I think that the legendary battle that the knights have been waiting for is coming. And I think Ev’s right. It is going to be against the Brotherhood.”

                Armand turned from the sword and paced thoughtfully in the room that barely afforded him more than five steps. “I wonder what it’s going to be like after the battle?” Armand thought aloud, addressing his words to his sword. “I mean, after it’s all over, we’ll come back. Everett will go back to working on his grants and trying to finish up his on-line classes. Edgar and Sydney will teach. Roland and Ledger will keep going to college, being goof-offs. Morgan will keep being a dick.”

                “How can you live a life like this?” Armand asked. “Tomorrow night, we’re going to prepare to launch a massive offensive against a military cult the size of an international corporation.” He laughed nervously. “How do you go back to normal, everyday life after that? How do I spend Tuesday night and Wednesday morning killing people, saving the world, and then on Thursday morning, go grocery shopping and have to deal with chicken breasts being fifty cents more than usual. How?”

                Armand turned back to his sword, smiling a trite, but strong smile of acceptance. “In the end, I guess it’s all going to come down to simply taking it one breath at a time. Won’t it?”

                The sword that stared back at him said nothing.

 

Sydney sat down across from Roland in the late evening restaurant. She was dressed in a summer dress, while Roland sat across from her in a white tank top and floral Hawaiian shirt. Even looking like a typical frat boy, the knight seemed to bring some dignity to the clothes.

                “You ready?” She asked, looking at Roland. He nodded. “I don’t know if I will be or not.” The dame confided. “I mean, this is big. Really big.” She looked out the window into the corner of the place. “I guess, I guess when it all comes down to it, I imagine we’re all pretty scared.”

                “A little bit, yeah.” Roland admitted. “But hey.” He said after a moment, his usual carefree grin appearing. “We’re trained. We’re ready. We’re locked, cocked and . . .”

                “Roland.” Sydney said, stopping him. “By this time Wednesday, chances are, at least three of us are going to be dead. If not all of us.”

                “Well, then I plan on haunting Jericho like it’s going out of style.” Roland smiled, persevering against Sydney’s melancholy. “That boy ain’t ever gonna sleep again.”

Sydney just laughed. “You’re really not worried, are you?” She asked.

“Worried? Sure.” He said. “Scared? More than a little. Frightened? Of course. But I’m not even going to think about it. It’s not worth my time.”

                “How can you be so cool about it?” She asked.

                “Because I am that damn cool.” Roland said, grinning suddenly. Sydney threw a napkin at him, his grin infectious. “But seriously.” He said, his demeanor dropping a bit. “It’s really simply. It’s ninja philosophy for me. Accomplish the large task by doing the small task. This isn’t going to be anything big. It’s big because you choose to make it big.”

                “Roland, we’re fighting for the fate of the world.” Sydney argued.

                “But we’re not.” He said. “Or we don’t have to be. To me, this isn’t about the fate of the world. It might be on Wednesday, but not right now. Right now, it’s just a plane trip and some fighting and an obstacle course.”
                “What?” Sydney asked.

                “Sydney,” Roland said. “We’re going to get there and it’s just a set of tasks, like exercising. It’s nothing more. Run over this spot of ground as quietly as you can. Climb this wall. Kill this guy. Fight this guy. Repeat.” He shrugged. “No big deal.”

                “But you could get killed.” She said. “And if you do, if we all do, then we’ll fail and the Brotherhood will win and they’ll attack the Illuminati through any and all means they can.”

                “And worrying about it is going to make it easier?” Roland asked rhetorically. “There’s nothing I can do about a guy with a gun that’s fifty yards away. And I can’t dodge bullets. But I can do what I can to make myself as hard to hit as possible. The point is, you can’t control what’s out of your control, so it’s not even worth worrying about. What you can control, do your best. Everything else, just don’t bother with it.”

                “That seems careless and idiotic.” Sydney said.

                “Yeah.” Roland nodded. “Maybe. Maybe not. Who is to say? But the point is, you’re worried and I’m not.” He picked up his menu and started to look it over. “And I am not going to let my ordeals affect myself tonight.”